Le sigue lloviendo al corazón...

Has been a rainy day...
and I felt like listening to this song...
but no, my heart is not broken.



...y no ha parado de llover.

The song of my childhood...

I do remember, I was so little and naive, my cousin used to play this song a lot so I loved it from the first listened and still loving it since then. This song reminds me of so many things, such as happy moments, sadness, lonlyness, dispair, love, tears, kisses, red cheeks, sun burns, dust, abandonment, emptyness,laughs, jokes, sweat, scrapes,hugs, joy, angst..........myself.

Oh and the video is so tender.




Understand the things I say
Don’t turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn’t disagree
D’you see me, d’you see
Do you like me, do you like me standing there
D’you notice, d’you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care

Unhappiness, where’s when I was young
And we didn’t give a damn
’cause we were raised
To see life as a fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Ol he liked me, does anyone care

Understand what I’ve become
It wasn’t my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you, I miss
’cause I liked it, I liked it
When I was out there
D’you know this, d’you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care

Unhappiness was when I was young
And we didn’t give a damn
’cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Ol he liked me, does anyone care...

Half Nelson

"Change moves in spirals, not circles. For example, the sun goes up and then it goes down. But everytime that happens, what do you get? You get a new day. You get a new one. When you breathe, you inhale and you exhale, but every single time that you do that you're a little bit different then the one before. We're always changing. And its important to know that there are some changes you can't control and that there are others you can. "

The only constant is change.

It has been a while......

Its been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high
Its been a while
Since I first saw you
Its been a while
Since I could stand
On my own two feet again
And its been a while
Since I could call you

And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that Ive rendered
Have stretched myself beyond my means

Its been a while
Since I could say
That I wasnt addicted
Its been a while
Since I could say
I loved myself as well and...
Its been a while
Since Ive gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do
Its been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when Im with you

And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that Ive rendered
Gone and fucked things up again... again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
But then I go an fuck things up again

Its been a while
Since I could...
Look at myself straight
Its been a while
Since I said Im sorry
Its been a while
Since Ive seen the way
The candles light your face
Its been a while
But I can still
Remember just the way you taste

Everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
To me... I know this pain
Can I blame this on my father?
He did the best he could for me

Its been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high
Its been a while
Since I said Im sorry

Last night..

..I dreamt of this guy I used to chat a lot, the prettiest thing about him is that he used to tell me nice things, it really felt like we had something together or at least I felt it, not sure if he felt it too, but Im still remembering him even if he hasnt. So I dont quite remember the dream very well but I´m sure it was him, you know ...when you cant see his/her face but you can really feel who he/she is, weird right?well ..... his intention about me was determinated, I saw him, he was desperately trying to find me, to see me for the very first time, but somehow I couldnt get back to him dont know why, and that was my dream , pretty short but it felt so real! I didnt want to wake up, Thats the worst thing about dreams, isnt it? well, it depends, but with this dream I wanted to keep on dreaming and find out the way to get together and see how it all works out.

And now I have this weird feeling, that feeling of really missing that guy. I thought I had already forgotten him and now I don´t. Maybe tomorrow I´ll forget it all.